EDZ ~,^

This one sentence makes a lot of sense to me... Of all the things that’s happening to me now this saying is sounding like a broken record in every days of my life...

Some people whom you look up to now might not be on top the next time you met. Sometimes the one whom you consider worthless can amaze you in the future of his success. Funny isn’t it?!?

If you’re that person whom started below, you’ll say that life is quite good anyway… People who succeed usually comes from scratch… they work hard to have a comfortable life when they get old… They sometimes abuse themselves to being workaholic to reach their dreams because they wanted to change their lives and the lives of their children in the future… I remember what my mom always told me, “I don’t want you guys to experience what I did when I was young…” Mom started working when she was 13 yrs old. At an early age she was already a help to her family. She’s actually originated from Bicol, wasn’t able to continue schooling because at this age she already left her family to work in Manila to further help them. Mom got 10 more siblings… She’s the second child but acting as the eldest because the latter suffer from asthma… Despite of her young age, life’s been generous for her to get a job… God is really good… at young age He gave her so much strength to face life’s struggles… and after hearing a lot of stories from my mom, I’d say that God had just prepared her for a bigger responsibility—for a much bigger task and much difficult test…Mom work real hard—too hard to give us a comfortable life… but I guess we really just cant have everything we wanted… Maybe some of our dreams may and may not come true no matter how we strive to reach it… My family gone through a lot of ups and downs that I may say--made me look at life at a different way… I’d still felt teary when I remember those days….Days that I spent crying asking if there still be something good I could have and asking why am I so unfortunate… hahaha...yep! I even thought about this… I even have those days when I wanted to froze the hands of the clock because I felt so much happiness that I even don’t want it to end afraid of the next day when I need to get sad again… I even had that promised day that that would be the last time I’ll cry because of financial issues…I guess that’s quite working for me though, because that's the last time I remember crying because I don’t have money...But don’t get me wrong…hahaha…I always comes short financially because I consider lots… But at least I’m not a crying baby now… and I guess I’ll blame it on aging (lolz!). I guess that we’re getting a change of life’s phase so fast before our very eyes. Things we are afraid to face before will come our way no matter how many times we changed directions on the paths we chose… We’ll laugh and cry at times… we’ll succeed and failed on some of our dreams…life got so much ups and down, just like a roller coaster… It is only up to us on how to enjoy the ride… learn from life’s experiences… be wise to make decisions coz you don’t know when your life’s roller coaster will swing you up then down... ~,^

Masaya ko na nalulungkot ngayon...ung isang kaibigan ko kc mangingibang ibayo na... hehe...masaya ko kc alam ko matutupad na nya mga pangarap nya nalulungkot dahil cyempre bihira ko nlng cya makikita..mukhang sa friendster nlng ata..(tears tears..) marami ako natutunan sa taong to...kakalungkot lang talga pag may farewell...

pero that's life! me mga bagay lang talga na kelangan nateng gawin and there are times that we need to go far away from our love ones..to sacrifice.. and to hold tight to our good memories and friendship were our ways to overcome our loneliness..

keep in touch my friend.. anyways...we're still looking at the same stars...--you can't be too far.. ~,^

Nung bata ko nagmamadali ko makagraduate...gusto ko na kc magkaron ng sarili ko pera nun pero namomroblema ko kung pano ko hahanap ng trabho...ang dami ko kinatatakutan... takot ako sa responsibility...bread winner ako ng pamilya...kaya nung nagaaral palang ako -- nakaset na ang mind ko na kelangan ko tumulong sa pamilya ko after graduation...hayssss...from college sobrang payatot ako nun until nung first work ko...nagstart na ko magkalaman..hehehe..nakabawas sa isipin yung..at last me trabaho na ko-- naisip ko..ung kinatatakutan ko kaya ko pala gawin..pero dont get me wrong marami pa rin ako fears...sobra pa sa aakalain nu.. Cguro sabihin na nateng takot ako sa responsibilities-kc baka hindi ko kaya..Naniniwala kc ko na as you get older...you're entitled for more responsibilities..haysss...nakakatakot lang isiping baka hindi ko makaya?!? kaya ko kaya yung ginawa ng parents ko for me?!? kaya ko kaya magpalaki ng anak na kcng baet ko (ehem) na mabuting tao... kakayanin ko kaya bumili ng sarili kong bahay sasakyan at lahat ng gusto ko.. Medyo pangarap ko yumaman, pero di ko lang alam kung kaya ko yun.. Pangarap ko magkaroon ng malaking bahay at kotse sariling negosyo at mabili lahat ng gusto ko na kailangan ko magtravel dito at sa ibat ibang bansa... Ang dami kong gustong gawin na alam kong imposible sa ngayon... sana dumating ung araw na magawa ko to lahat....di lang ang dami dami ko pa gusto gawin....pero nakakatakot isipin na kahit na kulobot na ko di ko pa rin nagagawa to... natatakot din ako sa panahon matanda na ko hehehe...dapat "Takot" ata title nito eh...hehehe...pakiramdam ko kc ang bilis ng panahon ngayon... magcchristmas na ulit at new year tapos birthday ko na ulit...wahhh grabe na to!!!!!! pero in a way..medyo happy na rin kc i know na tutulungan ako ng partner ko to have a happy journey..Sana hindi cya maging sakit sa ulo! hehehe