EDZ ~,^

I Decided...

2008-10-09T15:32:00.001-07:00

Today I made one critical decision -- as I always said, I don't want an opportunity come my way without grabbin' it. Don't get me wrong by saying that I haven't thought about it before deciding. I know that theres are a lot of risks to every decisions I make. Nobody can tell if it is good or bad -- but deciding to move on is not an easy task. It's like restarting the whole process again... building up yourself again...making good of yourself again...

In the end, I know that no matter what I did, my friends and loved ones will be there for me when my tears starts to fall... ~,^

Walang Magawa...

2008-09-18T07:48:00.000-07:00

resulta ng walang magawa...

what do yah' think?!

2008-09-09T15:52:00.000-07:00

check this out...

Si Enan

2008-09-09T07:03:00.000-07:00

eto cya kasama ko...~,^

Si Enan na makulit, palaasar, mahilig sa cyber games, at higit sa lahat pikon. Pero---- hindi umiinom, di naninigarilyo, at higit sa lahat mahal na mahal ako.... wahaha... sana totoo pakiramdam ko...

He likes eating especially with sinigang... he likes softdrinks and sometimes healthy beverages like of something from fruits... He's a funny person and can become too emotional and very stubborn! He likes basketball and war related movies...

He listens when I talk. lectures me when I'm grumpy... Insists asking what made me angry when I refused to.

His eyes genuinely smiles when he's happy... I like the way he laughs... the way he tells his jokes... and the way he looks at me...

Mabenta mga jokes ko sa kanya... he laughs though its fake.. wahehe.. he becomes sad when I say I wanted to work abroad... he'll say that I just wanted to leave him and find somebody else... He loves and forgive me though I always hurt him... he wont stop bugging me till i smile... till I say "lets forget about this". hehehe... prinsesa ako sa kanya kahit sa iba hindi... (wag na keo komontra..hehehe)...

ladies and gentlemen...Enan ~,^

Ganun talga...

2008-09-05T09:33:00.000-07:00

naka VL ako nung last day nung account namen... malungkot pero ano pa nga ba... di ko na rin napicturan station ko... talgang nakakalungkot.. medyo matagal na rin ako sa company na to... nagsimula dun sa maliit na opisina na merong nakakatakot na elevator-- dun sa ortigas... kakalungkot kc kung kelan nmn maganda na ang facilities eto nmn ung nangyari...

Birthday kahapon ni Jham.. at nagpicturan kame dahil yesterday din nmen napirmahan ung bago nameng contract.. nakangiti kame pero malungkot... Di rin malinaw ang mga next move... salamat sa mga taong kasama ko... kc nakakakuha pa rin ako ng lakas ng loob... thank you thank you... haysssss... sana maging ok na ang lahat... Ganun talga...

Here are some pictures from yesterday..

I’m thinking too much again…

2008-08-22T13:18:00.000-07:00

These last few days… I really don’t want to do anything but to cuddle…seems like I’d be missing a lot of people… I previously thought that I’m on the right track…but the path that I chose seems to have many bumps and broken road now…can’t see the direction clearly because of the dust floating in the air blocking my site… my mind is dizzy as well trying to see through it and finding the safest way to arrive… I’m afraid that my next move will lead me to somewhere I don’t like… I’m feeling so lonely right now…. I wanted to cry out for help till I fall asleep and dream that everything is falling on its places… where in a I could not ask for more… to forget the sad reality for a moment… =(

Last day ni Ate Rizza...huhuhu =(

2008-08-20T13:20:00.000-07:00

waaaahhhhhhhhh........ we'll gonna miss you gurl!!!!! ingat ka po palagi...

Be Happy!

2008-03-26T11:24:00.000-07:00

I always dreamed of being happy. I often make decisions without thinking too much of the consequences and just worry later. Sometimes, we don't need to be too wise in dealing with life. Great things sometimes come in small packages. Your destiny partner sometimes doesn't have the qualities you dreamed him/her to have but end up loving this person. I remember a friend in college, who told me that I worry and think too much.. Well, that's when the "be happy" motto started..Only time can tell what will happen next and what would you be next. Enjoy what you have right now coz we cant bring back time. Forget what others have to say and think if you would enjoy the moment or not. People around you, can tell anything and everything to your face and at your back. You may even have a friend who you trusted more but telling fishy things when your not around. It wasn't being selfish but rather enjoying what you currently have.

Answered Prayer!

2008-04-09T08:12:00.000-07:00

Never thought that magic could happen-- Never thought dreams can be real. plain color is what I can tell my life was before. Living for the sake of living. Kept searching for something and believing I could never ever find whatever it is. My bestfriend's boyfriend even told me that I'll be an oldmaid! I'm no pretty gal! I'm just the ordinary type...One of my life's philosophy is that "love takes time"...I don't believe when a person tend to love someone whom he/she just met --like 1 month... I don't think that that feeling would exist with that span of time! for me that would be a joke. When I'm on a Team building with my old company in Batangas,-- along the sea shore--I've waited for a falling star thinking it would somehow grant my wish..I know I'm thinking stupid and its too childlike!!! But I don't really care.. and I don't think as well that it would happen-- really... After the waiting, luckily the sky gave more than 1 falling star I thought i would see.... Well, that'll make a lot of wishes...and if by chance it would come true--that'll be very great!! My first wish (of course I'm talking to God that time--well this is quite a serious request though) is to find true love..someone whom I can call mine...someone who's willing to give anything and someone who's willing to love me without pretensions...When I made the wish, I was seeing a guy for a week..a little of me is wishing that he's the one...I don't want to assume...pagod na ko dyan...I told myself that the next time I love...I will try my best to let this person know my feelings..no more denials..no more pakipots.. but when the feeling's gone I'd still let him know syempre... What do you think had happened to my wish?? well, we're now enjoying our relationship for 2 years this coming May (ahem! medyo kinikilabutan nako sa mga sinasabi ko..ahahaha). Or course there are ups and downs but how he handles it keeps us together. I told him that he's an answered prayer..(hihihi) i don't know if he believes it or not...I don't think that I could asked for more...and I don't think that I could find another person as wonderful as he is...Hope this magical feeling would last forever...~,^

2008-07-11T13:42:00.001-07:00

Takot ako tumanda...

2008-08-01T12:59:00.000-07:00

Nung bata ko nagmamadali ko makagraduate...gusto ko na kc magkaron ng sarili ko pera nun pero namomroblema ko kung pano ko hahanap ng trabho...ang dami ko kinatatakutan... takot ako sa responsibility...bread winner ako ng pamilya...kaya nung nagaaral palang ako -- nakaset na ang mind ko na kelangan ko tumulong sa pamilya ko after graduation...hayssss...from college sobrang payatot ako nun until nung first work ko...nagstart na ko magkalaman..hehehe..nakabawas sa isipin yung..at last me trabaho na ko-- naisip ko..ung kinatatakutan ko kaya ko pala gawin..pero dont get me wrong marami pa rin ako fears...sobra pa sa aakalain nu.. Cguro sabihin na nateng takot ako sa responsibilities-kc baka hindi ko kaya..Naniniwala kc ko na as you get older...you're entitled for more responsibilities..haysss...nakakatakot lang isiping baka hindi ko makaya?!? kaya ko kaya yung ginawa ng parents ko for me?!? kaya ko kaya magpalaki ng anak na kcng baet ko (ehem) na mabuting tao... kakayanin ko kaya bumili ng sarili kong bahay sasakyan at lahat ng gusto ko.. Medyo pangarap ko yumaman, pero di ko lang alam kung kaya ko yun.. Pangarap ko magkaroon ng malaking bahay at kotse sariling negosyo at mabili lahat ng gusto ko na kailangan ko magtravel dito at sa ibat ibang bansa... Ang dami kong gustong gawin na alam kong imposible sa ngayon... sana dumating ung araw na magawa ko to lahat....di lang ang dami dami ko pa gusto gawin....pero nakakatakot isipin na kahit na kulobot na ko di ko pa rin nagagawa to... natatakot din ako sa panahon matanda na ko hehehe...dapat "Takot" ata title nito eh...hehehe...pakiramdam ko kc ang bilis ng panahon ngayon... magcchristmas na ulit at new year tapos birthday ko na ulit...wahhh grabe na to!!!!!! pero in a way..medyo happy na rin kc i know na tutulungan ako ng partner ko to have a happy journey..Sana hindi cya maging sakit sa ulo! hehehe

Farewell ...

2008-08-06T12:45:00.000-07:00

Masaya ko na nalulungkot ngayon...ung isang kaibigan ko kc mangingibang ibayo na... hehe...masaya ko kc alam ko matutupad na nya mga pangarap nya nalulungkot dahil cyempre bihira ko nlng cya makikita..mukhang sa friendster nlng ata..(tears tears..) marami ako natutunan sa taong to...kakalungkot lang talga pag may farewell...

pero that's life! me mga bagay lang talga na kelangan nateng gawin and there are times that we need to go far away from our love ones..to sacrifice.. and to hold tight to our good memories and friendship were our ways to overcome our loneliness..

keep in touch my friend.. anyways...we're still looking at the same stars...--you can't be too far.. ~,^

Food Trip sa MCdo

2008-08-08T06:52:00.000-07:00

Gusto ko rin ipost to..hehehe..nung Sat 08/02/2008 pagka-out kumain kami sa Mcdo kasama ng ilang mga ka-office mate ko.. hehehe pauso ni ate rizza para bumili ng baso dahil limited edition lang daw ito..

Ayuko ko panga bumili nung una kasi kala ko plastic lang un hehehe... di na kc ko nakakapanud masyado ng mga commercials.. nung makita na maganda--aun nadamay ako sa trip nilang baso!!! wahahaha... at sa sobrang saya namen picture picturan pa kame pati mga baso nadamay na din! hekhekhek..

at eto namn ung mga star na baso:

Picture with Greicia:

Si Superstar roge:

Si Rizza and Jen:

at hulaan nyo kung sino to --- si Roge ulit!!!!

Life's a Roller Coaster...

2008-08-08T12:24:00.001-07:00

This one sentence makes a lot of sense to me... Of all the things that’s happening to me now this saying is sounding like a broken record in every days of my life...

Some people whom you look up to now might not be on top the next time you met. Sometimes the one whom you consider worthless can amaze you in the future of his success. Funny isn’t it?!?

If you’re that person whom started below, you’ll say that life is quite good anyway… People who succeed usually comes from scratch… they work hard to have a comfortable life when they get old… They sometimes abuse themselves to being workaholic to reach their dreams because they wanted to change their lives and the lives of their children in the future… I remember what my mom always told me, “I don’t want you guys to experience what I did when I was young…” Mom started working when she was 13 yrs old. At an early age she was already a help to her family. She’s actually originated from Bicol, wasn’t able to continue schooling because at this age she already left her family to work in Manila to further help them. Mom got 10 more siblings… She’s the second child but acting as the eldest because the latter suffer from asthma… Despite of her young age, life’s been generous for her to get a job… God is really good… at young age He gave her so much strength to face life’s struggles… and after hearing a lot of stories from my mom, I’d say that God had just prepared her for a bigger responsibility—for a much bigger task and much difficult test…Mom work real hard—too hard to give us a comfortable life… but I guess we really just cant have everything we wanted… Maybe some of our dreams may and may not come true no matter how we strive to reach it… My family gone through a lot of ups and downs that I may say--made me look at life at a different way… I’d still felt teary when I remember those days….Days that I spent crying asking if there still be something good I could have and asking why am I so unfortunate… hahaha...yep! I even thought about this… I even have those days when I wanted to froze the hands of the clock because I felt so much happiness that I even don’t want it to end afraid of the next day when I need to get sad again… I even had that promised day that that would be the last time I’ll cry because of financial issues…I guess that’s quite working for me though, because that's the last time I remember crying because I don’t have money...But don’t get me wrong…hahaha…I always comes short financially because I consider lots… But at least I’m not a crying baby now… and I guess I’ll blame it on aging (lolz!). I guess that we’re getting a change of life’s phase so fast before our very eyes. Things we are afraid to face before will come our way no matter how many times we changed directions on the paths we chose… We’ll laugh and cry at times… we’ll succeed and failed on some of our dreams…life got so much ups and down, just like a roller coaster… It is only up to us on how to enjoy the ride… learn from life’s experiences… be wise to make decisions coz you don’t know when your life’s roller coaster will swing you up then down... ~,^

A Constant Change ^_^

2008-08-15T13:03:00.000-07:00

Sa bawat phase na pinagdadaanan naten sa buhay sobrang dami ng changes na nangyayari. Minsan nga nahihirapan taung tanggapin na nangyayari un dahil sa sobrang nasanay na rin tau… Usually, eto ung mapalayo tau sa mga taong nasanay tau na laging andyan—kasama naten tumawa—sa lakwatsa—sa kalokohan—pati na rin pag may problema… Kasama mo umiyak at kasama mo rin magtrip at magsaya… Mahirap ibahin ang nakasanayan! Mahirap mapalayo sa taong naging parte na ng pagkatao mo! Parang break up lang yan eh… huhuhu… pero syempre iba pa rin pag kaibigan… At least sa magkaibigan mas malakas ang loob nyong kontakin ang bawat isa para mangumusta para sabihing “kita naman tau!”…pero pag ex—neknek!! Hehehe..bitter bitteran daw ba…( cyempre!)… Eto ung mga changes na kahit hindi naten gusto e hindi naten maiiwasang mangyari… Ayaw man naten at sobrang nakakalungkot man pero wala tau magagawa…

Sabi nga ng karamihan…things happens for a reason—naniniwala din ako dito! At naniniwala akong lahat ng nangyayaring nakakalungkot merong good karma… Malungkot man tau ngayon, magiging masaya rin tau at magiging masaya rin silang napalayo saten… maybe not at the moment but God don’t want us to be lonely for long… connected to sa post ko na life is a roller coaster eh…hehehe… mas marami pang changes na mangyayari saten as we grow old—as we continue this journey… we will be meeting lots and lots of people and some will need and have to leave as we go along the way… the best that we can do is to keep in touch… -- to keep and treasure the friendship that has been built among us… there’ll more changes ahead of us and we need to be strong in each every step…

2008-07-11T13:26:00.000-07:00

Birthday ni Enan sa 27 hehehe... di ko alam kung ano ibibigay ko.wahahaha... tatanda na namn cya...wahooo...weekend na ulit magkikita na kame!

2008-07-03T12:11:00.000-07:00

matagal tagal na rin hindi nkapagpost...hehehe...tinatamad kc ko eh...pero cge kahit walang masyadong importanteng sasabihin gora nlng.. nakakainis yung break ko kanina.occupied kc lahat nung bed dun sa sleeping quarters kaya I end up sleeping on the couch...dun sa tinatawag namen 3rd rum...pambihira. dahil sa paghahangad ng katawan kong matulog sa maayos na higaan pati sa panaginip binangungot ako ng kama...hahaha dun daw sa panaginip ko eh tinawag na daw ako ng isa kong ka-office mate at pinalipat dun sa isang bed na bakante...pero nagtataka ko baket hindi pa rin ako komportable...anak ng pating panaginip lang pala!!!! hahaha... pambihira..... Nweiz, excited na ko maguwian dahil long weekend etech...hehehe..la kami pasok later, holiday sa america...yes!!! makakanud ako ng bubble gang!!!

To my ~,^...

2008-04-16T12:28:00.000-07:00

Its been long since the last time I talked to you seriously...I felt sad missing those moments when we hang out together, laughs, jokes, and talks that we had. I wish that I could bring back the hands of time to make it up with you..Forgive me for those times I'm not there to comfort you...forgive me for those times that I wasnt there to give you advice when you need one... forgive me for those times that I wasnt there to walk beside you...Dont think that someone had already replaced you coz nobody can do and no one can qualify....Im looking forward watching the sunset with you beside me along with our loveones.. Looking forward to have a chat regarding the latest happenings and changes with our lives...Laughs at those times when we became tanga.. and dream together for more happiness to come.

Fra Lippo Lippi "Stitches And Burns"

2008-04-02T07:17:00.001-07:00

People say that Im a foll Well I don't know At least I found outWhat it takes to be strong I was dreaming all day longA drifting cloud With eyes wide open I would choose not to see Chorus Now I don't want To see you any more Don't want to be the one To play your game Not even if you smile Your sweetest smile Not even if you beg me Darling please Say good morning to the world I hope you like it Take good care of all those Things that we had I've been looking for a way For too long now Seems like everything Must come to an end Repeat Chorus Time after time Nothing that I can do Knowing your ways and loving your ways But not getting through at all Day after day Leaving the past behind Coming to terms with stitches and burns learning to fly again Repeat Chorus

Take a Chance!

2008-05-30T04:15:00.000-07:00

I always believe in the saying that we only pass this life once so grab every opportunity that comes your way. Kahit na ano pa mangyari bastat you took the chance and tried it. Haysss..... kahit na minsang hindi maganda ang maging experience at least you learned. Wahahaha....based on true experience to!!! Kakainis kc im quite emotional when it comes to situation like this (kinikilabutan na ko!!!ewwwwwww!!)but I know that this will make me strong (hindi nga??). Only time will tell kung ano pede mangyari, take the chance as your stepping stone. Malay mo...Dont expect much but think positive.. ~,^